No offense Professor, but during the first few weeks of this course I honestly did not understand the purpose of posting to WordPress. I thought that giving us the freedom to write about whatever media related topic we desired was meaningless and not constructive. Wednesday nights were miserable because I wasted an excessive amount of time debating what topics to write about. I did not mind the readings; I found most of them quite interesting and informative. Also, writing blog posts took me a very long time because I second-guessed every sentence I typed. Either the word order in the sentence wouldn’t sound right or the sentence was too simple. The informal “blogger” style of writing was foreign to me. The extent of my college writing education had only gone as far as expository writing (but with plans to be expanded).
As the class continued, the blog posts became less of a burden on my Wednesday nights. It became much easier for me to select a topic and organize my ideas. Once I selected a topic, ideas came easily to me, and then writing felt more natural. I was proud when I produced the occasional “quality” blog post. One time I even made my roommate read my post because I liked it so much. Also, my classmates’ comments proved to me that my writing was not as bad as I had previously thought it was. In one comment, a classmate complimented my sense of humor in my writing. Finally, I stopped sounding like a robot making an argument, like the tone I used in my expos papers.
Previously, I was scared to go out of my comfort zone in my writings because I was afraid my ideas weren’t good enough, and would be rejected. I recently declared an English major, so for every blog post I felt pressured to compose an exceptional piece with advanced vocabulary and a unique style of writing. In my poetry class I was assigned a long-term paper and then waited until the night before the deadline to start the assignment. I purposely did not put my fullest efforts towards the paper because I was afraid that my best work would be inadequate in a class full of aspiring English majors. To my surprise, my grade was a lot better than I had expected it to be. The decent grade did not make me think “Aw yeah I got a good grade so I can bullshit the next paper too!”. The grade gave me faith in my own ideas and the confidence to demonstrate my true abilities on the next paper. Frankly, my writing skills are still developing. I may not be a naturally talented writer, but I feel that if I continue to learn and practice writing I can achieve at the expected level for an English major.
This course, has taught me to appreciate my creative ideas and not to be scared of others’ criticism. In previous English classes, I have only written in response to assigned prompts. In this class, the freedom to write about topics as we wish does provoke originality and creativity. Thus, it was not the informal style of writing that I was not used to in the beginning of the class; it was the creative thinking that I was not accustomed to. I hope to experience another course in the future in which I can exercise creative thinking, without having to conform to the rigid guidelines of a grading rubric.